I didn’t feel attacked by your comment, but I do feel a little stuck in my therapy at this moment and so your comment may have struck a nerve. Perhaps I heard it as you saying that if I just took initiative, it would all be better, and in the therapy world I’m not sure how to do that.

I can relate quite a bit to your statement. For example even my choice to go to therapy and in particular the type of therapy I’m doing can sometimes seem less valid because I chose it. This probably contributes to my ambivalence. Maybe I’m not even sure what is meant by “taking the initiative.” It seems like such a broad term.