Living, striving, failing, abiding
make it stop, if only a moment
trying to own it, get off the lot
into comfort, out of shock
who am i? I'm not sure whats happening
I know not to panic, calm i must remain
am i something devilish? Something crazy and insane?

Playing along, i just dont think i can stand it
control outside, it smiles and we pursue..
Chaos within, fire of desire smokes the internal vision

Severe discomfort, dangerous levels of altered consciousness
feel to be unglued, my self not

Certain skills not achievable, dread and fear presumes
achieve and win, just wish i didnt have to be like this...