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Originally Posted by Poiuytl
This is all very fascinating to me. You see, I have huge problems with not letting go of the past, remembering things, brooding over memories. Feeling guilt. Comparing the dire present with a happy past, etc. I would really wish to be able to disconnect, or to face every day as a new, fresh person, facing a new, fresh event.
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I can understand that desire. It is a mixed thing for me. I remember very little from childhood. And when I think about it, I cringe. So I never want to see old pictures, reminisce, talk about old times. And yet...I'm also trapped by obsessing over the future. Making lists. Worrying about what if's. Thinking about tomorrow even if I have won the lottery today. Still, worry, fretting.
So in this moment, here. I am often confused. My life is good now, I remind myself. Yet...I am still so compartmentalized, that "now" doesn't relate to "then" or "later." Yet.... Yet... Working on it....
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