I've lied about things that I was too embarrassed to admit. Also I've downplayed a good amount, lying about true feelings and used humor to cover up a lot. I admitted this to him not too long ago. Now I'm trying hard to say "everything and anything" like he wants me to. It's hard putting yourself out there.

Sometimes I'm afraid I'll slip and end up being dragged away to the psych ward. It probably wouldn't be so bad, actually. I need a vacation.