So I thought I was doing okay. Mood wise I am but ED wise I'm ****ed. I just spent 2 hrs convincing myself to take my meds. Not because swallowing pills is extremely difficult for me but I didn't want to eat the yogurt because it's XXX cal instead of the XX cal. I know I need the calories I'm consistently hover around XXX. I can't get the lower cal one until the 18th because I bought so much of this kind. We don't have money for me to waste more food. I'm keeping a food log to bring to my Dr next Friday because she doesn't believe I eat healthy. I don't know whether to show my pdoc Monday. My husband doesn't know I'm keeping a food diary. I get competitive with myself. I don't see my new T until mid July. I just don't know what to do. PCP wants me to exercise too but if I do that my intake will zero out. My husband knows I'm having difficulty and has taken to cooking at least dinner. He doesn't know how bad it is. IDK what to do. Maybe it's just today because I over by XXX calories yesterday.