Thank you both.

Mopey, now i know they were obligated to do something. ExT chose to talk with my parents. T would have shown up at my flat since i had told her what time i was thinking of doing it. I had asked them if there was any chance i could have been stopped and they said there wasnt. Maybe to not alarm me and force me to do it sooner, before THEY could have done anything.

But the result is only that now i cant be honest with them anymore. Not about plans...

Today i had an intense exchange of texts with exT. Im afraid he's mad or hurt from what i told him which is, im not pushing him away (ie. Not going to session on monday) but i dont want him to be professionally involved with me so that he is free from me and i wont be a problem or a burden to him. We decided for a phone appt. on monday since i dont think i could have beared a face to face session...

Today i didnt get to talk with pdoc who yesterday told me we would have, but at least i should be able to see her tomorrow morning and ask if they let me out on monday. I dont feel like going back to work and routine. I just want to complete the plan...T