Emotions are a filter, But you are in control of the camera. Emotions effect you and can make life so much harder but the one effecting your actions is till you. Always remember you control what you do. When you are experiencing heavy emotions always use logic because your emotions can't be trusted. The anger you feel is irrational since it has no reason to be there so it should not effect you. For me emotions swell up and go away unless I feed them. Distraction is a possible way out .i.e go look at puppies and kitties on computer or if you have an animal go be affectionate. This sounds like dysphoria I get but more sever. Dysphoria is Euphoria's evil twin brother. You get a similar high but it is seeded in destruction. It makes you kind of paranoid, you think negative thoughts, you kind of want to destroy parts of your life and kind of feels good. Do Not Act On These. Thoughts. I would recommend you go see your doctor/Therapist/Physiologist they can give you tips/whatever to help handle this. I wish you well.