I'm at the beginning of a depressive/psychotic episode. The Entity that puts suicidal thoughts into my head has shown itself. It's watching me through the lights and is controlling my thoughts. Fortunately I still have enough insight to tell that the thoughts aren't my own and shouldn't act on them.

I emailed pdoc and she thinks I should get evaluated at the ED. I don't think I need to because I'm not a danger to myself. I've got a few trips planned for June that I've already paid for and can't cancel. I'm worried they'll lock me up and I'll lose my deposit.

What should I do?