Hello my name is Sarah I am 30 years old and was diagnosed with Bi Polar Disorder about 13 years ago. It was in high school. After going on a few "Adventures" I went to see a psychiatrist. After a two week voluntary stay in a mental institution I was told that I was Bi Polar and that I was 'Same Day Cycle'. After trying 4 of the 'newer' medications they found that I responded to the older Lithium medication. I have been on the same 1200 mg does for a very long time and it works really well for me. It works so well that about 5 years ago I was told that I should step down a dose and that is where all the confusion begins.

Now since the first episode I have always been able to dip into euphoria. Like visiting an old friend sometimes for a moment and sometimes a few hours in the middle of the night every few weeks. I wend down from 4 pills to 3 and there she was, my old friend and there too was depression and chaos and it was all to much for me. I found that if I went down a half step I could enjoy the benefit of my condition with out most of the negative issues. On a three dose day I can summon euphoria with a thought and ride on the extra energy as long as I need it and then she falls way. This can last a moment to hours depending on how long i keep pressing the right trigger in my brain. On a four dose day it is harder to summon her and when I do it's closer to a runners high but any extra energy is good. I don't see much of depression but he normally shows his face in the afternoon. At work it is easy enough to distract myself enough that he goes away. At home he stays for a few hours and I normally turn to Netflix to sulk. In either case I can normally switch from to Euphoria as a way to get ride of depression but at home that means being hypo manic the next few hours. I am euphoric every day.

I wanted to learn my type of BP so that I could read more about and discuss it with others.I was doing expensive research. I thought the either the doctor forgot to tell me or that I just forgot it being so long ago. I thought I might have had cyclothymia because I was cycling faster than the description of Rapid cycling or even the description for ultra rapid. I found out about ultra ultra rapid cycling or ultradian cycling and I was like yeah it has to be that or cyclothymia.

I went to a physiologist (before that I was seeing college doctor for prescriptions). Apparently I don't qualify under cyclothymia and ultradian cycling does not exist in their book (I still think I have it) I feel like I am a unicorn and if there are any other unicorns out there or anyone who know more about ultradian cycling or anything I would love to chat.