I am sure mixed BP is not helped by iron anemia and probably not in the short term by iron infusions. I have been having very severe mood swings, sometimes just feeling so sad, and I don’t even know why. Or a little off-hand remark hurts me more than it should. And I feel guilty for falling apart while H is working harder than ever to support us and my daughter is dealing with issues of adolescence, such as her identity, what to do when she’s outgrown most of her toys other than things like Legos and her friends get to take summer vacations to Disney World, but we only might get to stay 3 or 4 days with my sister and her family in Plano (Dallas area).

I have not had lows this extreme in a very, very long time. I think it’s just the temporary chaos and getting my iron issues sorted along with my daughter and H each having big changes of their own right now.

I have more difficulty concentrating, am forgetting stuff constantly...ugh! I am not at the point of self harm and as is the nature of mixed, next thing I will decide to sort through electronics in my office - Old earbuds, usb cords, iPods, even floppy disks. And then I will be OK, I will want to fix dinner, and H starts something he doesn’t want to stop, dinner is late, my mood plummets (not helped by the fact I hate to cook and just want to get meals done).

Pdoc doesn’t want to change anything until my iron levels are stable, I guess unless I am having very severe symptoms that are near or do require going IP, which I am not. It is understandable as they link iron deficiency to depression and anxiety but frustrating too, just waiting.