I'm SO SORRY that you're suffering SO MUCH, HatsuneMiku! It seems like you're already doing EVEYRHTING YOU CAN to improve your situation! Please do NOT be hard on yourself! I'm so sorry that your mom isn't being kind to you! I'm REALLY HAPPY that you've asked for assistance and that you've asked for help to your friends as well! Unfortunately I'm not sure if there's anything I can advice you myself! Just keep focusing on finding help and assistance right now! As for your mother, I'm so sorry she's treating you this way, but unfortunately SHE'S the one that needs to put some work into rebuilding your relationship! It takes two people to do that after all! Hang in there! Things CAN and WILL get better! I'M SURE OF THAT! Just focus on surviving as much as you possibly can right now! That must be the priority! You can focus on the rest later! Just take it one step at the time, ok? I know I'm not very useful! I'm deeply sorry! You have my support and both you and your mom will be in my thoughts and prayers! I'm also here to listen! I wish I could do more to help you! PLEASE NEVER GIVE UP HOPE! There's a bright future ahead of you! Just keep fighting like you're already WONDERFULLY doing! I have much to learn from you! I hope things will get better soon for you and your mother! Sending many AWESOME, kind, safe, sweet, warm, wise and WONDERFUL HUGS TO YOU AND YOUR MOTHER, HATSUNEMIKU, JUST LIKE YOU ARE!