monty, frank...
i did a more conclusive poll (away from the boards) and found that 5 definately choose out. 5 either don't care , are on the fence, or are not in disicison making rolls, 2 chose life (but me mostly out of duty and responsibility, and the wee one is only 3 and integrated with me, so she went where i chose) and lastly one does want to but wants change and doesn't know how to make it... is also a little.

am holding on. just tired. hard to move ahead when everyone so so devided.