To me this T sounds a bit too defensive, which could be true or it could be partly due to your interpretation of your interactions.
Psychoanalytic therapy is all about meanings. To you, the statement about clock-watching has a negative meaning. Per your description you were watching clock, so it could have been also simple observation - pointing out the fact that this was actually happening. A reasonable thing to do next would be to have a discussion about the meaning of this interaction - what is the meaning you assigned to it, what was her meaning when she said it, what was the meaning of this whole interaction between you two.
Does your T really use clinical language in session? Like the words you mentioned: 'avoidance', 'projection', 'rationalisation'. If so, then you could confront her about it and tell that this is not helpful - that it feels that she is shielding herself from the true interaction with you with such words.
However, things coming back to you makes sense, because it is your therapy and not the T's. That doesn't mean that the T is perfect or has no problem in herself. But it would be totally inappropriate for her to start using your therapy time to work on her problems - that's what her own therapy and supervision is for. So, when things are turned back to you, it's not because you are "faulty" or "guilty". It's because you are in therapy assumably because you want to work with yourself and change yourself.
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