Have you thought about filing for bankruptcy? It's hard to feel motivated to work, if you think it's all going to go to creditors.

The lifestyle you once had is gone and, probably, not retrievable. It's normal to seriously grieve that. That income level, however, is not an essential ingredient to make a life worth living.

You're lonely. I'll bet the girls are sweethearts, but you need some "peer" companionship. You're not going to enjoy stopping at the watering holes that attract people who make 6-figure incomes. What would you talk about? So explore a different social stratum. Good people can be found at every income level. See if there is a program of physical rehab for cardiac patients at one of the exercise facilities in your area. Near me, a big hospital operates it's own fitness center with supervised training programs for heart patients. That would get 2 birds with one stone: some physical reconditioning and some opportunity to mingle with others who have had a similar health setback. Commonality of experience is a great ice breaker and basis for bonding. A supervised program is ideal because it provides structure, which you sorely need right now. If nothing like that exists where you are, try to approximate it. Nowadays, your local Y is apt to have a fitness/safety coach in the weight room. Start small. Commit to just 45 minutes twice a week. (I know it's easier said than done.)

There is no place where you can go and pick up a quart of motivation. Here's the secret: the motivation kicks in only after you force yourself to do something. (Every self-help book on depression tells us that. It's kind of annoying to hear that message, but it's a fundamental truth.)

Here's another trite saying worth you pondering: "Better to be a has-been, than a never-was." You've got quite a wealth of experience that no one can take away from you. That is all asset. Once you get the ball rolling, a lot comes easier to you than to someone who never got an education, served in the military, or founded a business. Every community has vacant leadership positions. Volunteer with the political party of your choice. I know you need to make some money, but don't be afraid to donate some time, gratis. Watching Netflix isn't paying you anything.

I'm sorry you've gotten such tough breaks and have gotten several all at once. I think most people would be overwhelmed. Sounds like you're fathering those girls responsibly and even with joy to some extent. I commend you on having your priorities well-ordered.

There's a philosophy that says that people are only doing all that they are capable of doing at any point in time and space, given what their background has formed in them. Maybe it's true. It would be a good way to regard your ex-wife. Evidently, she has really screwed up. How much of that was really under her control takes divine intelligence to analyze and evaluate. (Over your spiritual pay-grade.) So let go of the bitterness - for your own sake . . . and for the mental health of those girls who are burdened with knowing: "Mom's a loser." You sound too smart to climb on the "my ex ruined my life" bandwagon. It is empowering to believe that you make your life.

Celebrate the little victories you'll have, like showering and dressing right off in the morning. It's okay for progress to be made in small increments. Tell us how you make out.