Monday I'll tell you about the legal route I'm pursuing
I'm not sure whether to tell you I'm trying again with the other route. I'm just trying to make sure I have an option available ASAP. But to be completely honest I don't necessarily trust that the IN (S)- will work as well as IM racemic, and I like the control and freedom of being able to do it myself.
I know all else being equal you'd prefer I go the clinic route... Will you disapprove of this now that it might not be my only option?

P.S. I engaged in more recreational activities and it put me in a better mood for now. Is becoming slightly less weird to acknowledge with you at least. Maybe because we're not talking details beyond saying "an event." I've been talking to that friend about the details and he's been giving me **** in a teasing way, so I am talking to someone at least. I think I've mentioned this, but he's gay so absolutely 0% chance of this backfiring with it turning into him having feelings for me or something.