At every job I've had plus my first time on campus, I've always had this one person I've either stalked and/or been obsessed with, for whatever reason. On campus, I stalked this girl bc I couldn't accept that she didn't wanna be friends, even though I already made plenty of friends left and right. Needless to say, they all stopped being my friends.

Same thing with my first time at McDonald's. Even though everyone else accepted me, I couldn't accept that one coworker didn't, so I constantly begged which was construed as harassment.

I then spent a total of 5.5 years at Crossmark where I distributed samples at Sam's Club and Walmart. I obsessed over my supervisor for my first 3.5 years. This time, the reason was different. It was bc she was really nice to me and I wanted to always be around her. She made me quit after 3.5 years and I returned for my final 2 years later on.

At Arby's, I finally had my car to myself. I worked there 2.5 years and I stalked my supervisor during my last few months. Again, it was bc my supervisor was really nice to me and liked me, just like at Crossmark. I wanted to be around her every possible moment. I drove myself to work on my days off every week just to see her. And I stayed on after my shift ended if she happened to still be working. She had me canned and i'm not allowed in the store.

Now i'm back at McDonald's and the reason for my obsession with my current supervisor (the general manager) is different from all other instances. It's bc he's sexy AF and I fantasize sometimes. I don't go in on my days off hardly ever. I also leave immediately after every shift. However, I talk about him more than about anyone else. I would also accuse him of being mad when he's not and cry and get jealous of other coworkers whenever I perceive him to "be mad."

This is the extent of it now, which is an improvement from b4, actually. Before, (like last year) I had once purred at him and told him it's my mating call. I also once asked him if I could wipe the sweat off of him. And when he shaved his head once, I admonished him that he should look nice for me. I addressed him as "homeboy" for a few months.

One of my hourly managers told me bluntly that I'm a creep and that he (the hourly manager) is feeling creeped out. That is without me treating him the way I treat the GM. And over the past several months, other coworkers brought this up to me on and off.

I don't wanna keep obsessing over ppl. However, it's so deeply ingrained that it's difficult to correct. I had suspected over the years that it's due to constantly being criticized by adults as a child and lack of other children wanting to associate with me. Now I'm firmly sure. I tried everything and nothing seems to work, not even my recent hypnotherapy. What can I do?