God I miss my rage. Expressing my anger made me feel so powerful. But those on the receiving end became very frustrated and I started to feel guilty for some of the things that would come out of my mouth. I want to start using "Dear Man" from DBT. But I'm so fed up with everything at this point, I feel like what's the point of having any communication with people that annoy the hell out of me. I've become very quiet and almost like I've lost my voice. I hope you find a solution and am glad you seem driven