Sometimes words are not necessary, the walls. I perfectly understand how you feel. You've been perfectly eloquent. We're here for you if that can help a little bit! Don't worry, you won't be judged here! THAT'S A PROMISE! Is there anything at all that you want to say? Anything at all that we can do to help you out and to make you feel less lonely? Just mention it and WE'LL DO THAT! THAT'S A PROMISE! I'm SO SORRY that you're hurting so much! I HOPE THINGS WILL GET BETTER SOON FOR YOU! WISH YOU THE BEST OF LUCK IN LIFE! Sending many AWESOME, kind, safe, sweet, warm, wise and WONDERFUL HUGS TO YOU, THE WALLS, JUST LIKE THE WAY YOU ARE!