Why am I deteriorating back into it so fast? Why don't I want to hold on to it? I don't get it. Another month+ who knows how sick I will be. Yes, I see my gp every 2 weeks but her advice was to eat more healthy stuff. I already feel I spend most of my time cooking and eating (which I know I don't). Maybe she can help through meds. I asked my insurance to go to a nutritionist but I have to go through my caseworker and I have no idea who that is. This whole thing is a mess.