It was certainly not a healthy amount to work, but when you're self employed it's pretty common. When we did go on vacations we went big. two week trips to the BVI on a 47 foot Catamaran with me as the captain sailing from Island to Island, Ski trips to Breckenridge staying slopeside in fancy condos....

I'm certainly not saying to feel sorry for me, I saw and did a lot before I fell into this funk. I thought I had a pretty good life and I know there are millions of people worse off than myself. I've got a friend from College who was a self made millionaire, owned big 60 foot yachts, had a beautiful house, beautiful wife, great kids and a golden retriever and now he's living in a homeless shelter outside of Detroit due to his alcohol abuse.

I know I control myself and I'm the one to blame for most of my current situation, it's just hard to find energy and motivation. I was never lazy when I was younger, now it's pretty much all I am.