As suggested above, you should see a physician and explain that you are very depressed. The doctor will send you for a few blood tests and then probably prescribe you an antidepressant. These pills aren't magic. But some antidepressant medication might give you somewhat of a boost. See if there is a local chapter of DBSA in your area and check out a meeting. (DBSA = Depression Bipolar Support Alliance) Good for you on the tomatoes and beans. Your daughters will remember all their lives doing this with you.

Try doing this. Set a kitchen timer for 30 minutes, after telling yourself that you'll be constructively active for those 30 minutes. Tell yourself that you'll go lie down when the bell rings. I do this myself when I'm really low.

At some point, it comes down to you making yourself do what you don't feel like doing. If you decide you'll get going once you have some motivation, you'll never get going. Any self-help book will tell you: momentum comes after you get the ball rolling. Will power does factor in. This is sad news when you feel depression has robbed you of any trace of will power. Your will is like a muscle. It has atrophied. You have to rehabilitate it. Make little conquests of mind over matter.