It’s not that I need a crisis line or the ER. I’ve always been very not needing in between session contact. It’s that for the last two years, I’m in the middle of a similarly serious medical situation myself and am currently undergoing treatment for it. In fact, it is gearing up again for another round of it and I’m facing a lot that will be very difficult. My T has been my main emotional support throughout my own personal situation, which has a lot of frightening aspects and uncertainty. Suddenly she is just not here, and going through my own situation without her feels just unbearable. And, truthfully, I feel abandoned and deserted. I thought she was really here for me. I didn’t tknow why I was so lucky to have her support though this, but I really believed and thought I did.