Having a hard time. The psych hospital started me on a new medicine (I got out a week ago) and it's causing edema and some weight gain. My pdoc is switching me to a more weight neutral med, mostly because of the edema. But between last appointment and today's, the scale showed a large weight gain. I know some of it is the edema but even the number is messing with my head. I want to go back to purging daily because of it. I haven't purged in over 3 years. The urges are so strong right now though...