I am 19 years old and a college student. I have felt depressed since I was 14, and my doctor suggested going to therapy but my parents shut it down and said it embarrassed them, and I have not been back since. I can feel my depression getting worse almost every day, and it is impossible to do daily tasks and even wake up. I feel hopeless and the only thing that distracts me temporarily is hanging with my friends from college, but they live in different places, and doing work, which is why I have two jobs and two majors (chemistry and engineering) and a minor (math) at school.

My parents say I am lazy, and we have a lot of family issues going on (death in the family, fighting, etc), so I am too scared to try and tell them that I need therapy or antidepressants because I think that my family issues are more important right now.

Because I am technically an adult I could do this on my own but I am not sure how to approach the doctors for antidepressants since I haven't talked to my doctor since the last time my parents were embarrassed. I feel guilty talking to my friends about my mental health because it is summer, who wants to deal with their sad friend.

I really do not know what to do, and I don't know what my future will look like. Please help with any guidance.