Today I had an endoscopy. Apparently my stomach is in perfect health. Good news. So why does it burn and stab when I eat most foods all of a sudden. I have never had any allergies. Just weird. Had a load of blood tests as there may be other reasons. Can stress do this? Make you feel like your stomach is severely irritated when its not? Sigh ... more doctors appointments and more money lost.

The last two mornings I have been waking up around 3.30 am giving me 5-6 hours sleep. Before that is was a solid 8 or 9. My mood is flat so I am certainly not heading hypomanic. In fact I have been struggling with trauma stuff again, and coming off Lamotrigine (very slowly) so maybe its due to one of those. Apart from that I think I am still stable. Well after having a general anaesthetic today for 15 minutes I am hoping I will sleep well tonight. It is 5.30 pm and I am ready for bed but I will have to wait.

Seeing my pdoc tomorrow. Will talk about whether or not I will fully taper off Lamatrigine or just get down to 200 mg and wait a while. It effects my vision so I need to get off but getting off to fast may effect my stability. It will also be nice to touch base on the PTSD stuff, especially since that is his major specialty. Oral Surgeon Thursday, Optometrist Friday, T on Saturday, GP Monday ... when will this craziness end?! My focus is on sorting out all my health issues to the point where I can return to work ... to pay the bills for sorting out my health issues. Kind of circular really.