I wanna crawl in a hole and disappear after my session I just had... I shared some REALLY personal sexual stuff with him.

At first I was being really vague about the sexual thing I wanted to talk to him about, but he (gently) urged me to be more specific, as he felt it would help with shame since my trauma is pretty much all sexual. Also, he needed some context to understand what I was talking about.

So then I got more specific, but not so specific as to name the exact thing I was talking about. And strangely, even though he now had enough info that we could have a therapeutic discussion about it, I suddenly felt a strong need to tell him the specific thing I had in mind. I didn’t though. And now I’m confused and simultaneously feel like a shared too much and too little, even though I shared some super super personal stuff.

I literally just walked out at the end without even looking at him since I was so ashamed.

Idk what to do. Pull back next time I see him because I shared too much, or share the last tidbit of information even though it’s highly personal and specific and technically unnecessary?

ETA that the thing I was talking about was not a trauma related sex thing, it’s only relation to trauma is that it’s also sexual