xRavenx: Congratulations on buying your new home! I am also a homeowner (apartment condo) and it's a source of pride. I've been here for 14 years but i do remember the buying process was quite stressful. Actually, i was pretty numb by the time i moved in. Then i got super bad buyer's remorse as i had a noisy neighbor and my toilet was flaky. But the neighbor moved out and a plumber fixed the toilet and every year here i get happier and happier with my home. I bought mainly to have an affordable place to live after i turn 65 and my benefits all but disappear and in this respect it's been a wise decision all around.

In other news, i had a pretty intense and painful pity party today about my appearance. I got all wound up about how fat and ugly i look. But i was cheered by this article in Psychology Today about overcoming appearance hatred. It said to focus on your *inner* self; qualities about yourself that you like not having to do with appearance. Well that's easy: i like that i am smart, funny, kind and honest. It said not to compare yourself to women in the media but rather to see the beauty in IRL women you admire. Hello! I think i will go on a TV and movie cleanse as my shows just feature such thin women it makes me feel bad about myself. If i need amusement i'll go to the mall and people-watch. You see all types at the mall. It said to exercise and eat sensibly for the healthy *functioning* of your body, rather than for appearance. It said to take a break from the mirror. It said to dress for comfort, which i've already nailed with my new waistbandless wardrobe! It said to take aging in stride and not compare yourself to women years or decades younger. Aging is not for cowards!

Anyways, i feel a whole lot better since i read this article and wanted to share. I've been raging about my weight-gainer meds and considering foolish things like going off them without my doctor's supervision and consent and now i've put all that silly thinking to rest.