Exactly. Sometimes we need to focus on ourselves, especially if we're the type to give and give and give. Or have way more compassion for others than compassion for ourselves. Something constructive can also be extending kindness towards ourselves. Giving when you've nothing to nourish yourself is actually destructive.

OP, I doubt you'll blame and shame someone else who wrote what you did. Hugs. Give some of that compassion to yourself. And you're not a loser, truly. It can be so painful to be vulnerable in therapy, hence we fear and regret it later because we're afraid T will be disgusted etc. But your T, if they're any good, will not be disgusted but honoured that you shared.