The good news is that you can be free from your parents in a few years if you can financially support yourself.

If you stay depressed and cannot support yourself you will have to suffer as a dependent.

BECOMING INDEPENDENT IS A REAL GOOD PURPOSE.

You will learn that life can have meaning without believing in a religious fantasy.
Life is hard for EVERYBODY.

If you want to find peace and a desire to live you are going to have to work hard for it.
Best Wishes!