I'm gonna read one of my books for a bit. It will be more interesting while high. I know one podcaster that likes to read when he's high.

That's what I should do for drug recreation is to just read books while eating weed gummies. It's harmless.

I don't have much meaning in my life. I think podcasts, music, family, my future and past and the world is what gives me meaning. Also spirituality, self improvement.. I guess that's a lot of meaning..

I think really tuning into the idea of ignoring anhedonia is the best cure for negative symptoms.. and people must know what they are and not accept that people are lazy and all the things that are wrong with humans. But in a tribe, no one really cares about the lazy person.. they just make fun of him/her but still show love. I think that's kind of a flawed motive or product of evolution.

But then that's saying that people shouldn't do drugs. People that love the law and are sucked into societal reality. So Idk what I want.