Hi first time posting here in social anxiety.

I can handle routine social interactions, but anxiety kicks in when it comes to deeper relationships. I've always had friends but how I make them is by listening to what they have to say and giving advice/input, or through deep kinds of "being there for you when you really need someone" moments. I don't speak about what I really think, or share parts of myself, or joke around like I do at home to myself. I have a few close friends that have had other friends that they seem to really enjoy the company of, and I can't seem to understand how they achieve that closeness so effortlessly while I seem like an every once in a while type to them. I feel like a dishonest conflict avoidant cardboard cutout in social interactions, just reacting to cues but not dishing anything else out.