Safety must be the priority, Pookyl! Definitely start taking care of yourself by taking those meds if they can help you! You can always scale them back and change meds once you feel better like all the other wise, wonderful posters have already wisely said better than I ever could! I hope things will get better soon for you! YOU DESERVE TO LIVE WELL! Just do EVERYTHING YOU CAN to stay safe, ok? You'll find PLENTY of support here! I hope things will get better soon for you! Keep us updated on your situation if you can, ok? WE ALL CARE ABOUT YOU! THAT'S A PROMISE! I hope things will get better soon for you one way or another and that you'll feel MUCH, MUCH BETTER SOON! Get well soon and take GREAT CARE OF YOURSELF! WISH YOU THE BEST OF LUCK IN YOUR HEALING AND IN YOUR LIFE! SENDING MANY SAFE, WARM HUGS TO YOU, POOKYL, AND TO EVERYONE!