My Support Forums - View Single Post - Bipolar Check-in Thread #34

GoldenSnitch · Jun 13, 2019, 07:32 AM

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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I’ve been having disturbing dreams again. At least three times in the last week I’ve dreamt

Possible trigger:

that I really, really wanted to cut myself but I couldn’t find a razor and then I ended up in the crisis ER and hospitalized. Now I really, really want to cut myself and unfortunately I DO have razors and could do it

I think the lowered haldol is catching up to me. I’m going to go back up tonight. I’m so depressed today. I don’t want to be at work at all but I don’t have any sick time left and I took off on Monday because my son was sick. So I guess I’m here. It’s raining and miserable here. That doesn’t help my mood. I went six days without a cigarette and then bought two packs. I gotta stop.

Sigh... I I’ll try to get through the day. RS is coming over today so he can comfort me. I won’t hurt myself.

I’m so sorry

those dreams sound terrifying. Be strong and try to make it through the day without hurting yourself. You can do this! It won’t be easy but you can do it.