I’ve been having disturbing dreams again. At least three times in the last week I’ve dreamt

I think the lowered haldol is catching up to me. I’m going to go back up tonight. I’m so depressed today. I don’t want to be at work at all but I don’t have any sick time left and I took off on Monday because my son was sick. So I guess I’m here. It’s raining and miserable here. That doesn’t help my mood. I went six days without a cigarette and then bought two packs. I gotta stop.

Sigh... I I’ll try to get through the day. RS is coming over today so he can comfort me. I won’t hurt myself.