This is the first time that I have posted. I am the daughter of a very abusive Narcissist mother. Since I can remember, I have always been a huge disappointment to her. I tried for over 40 years to be somebody that she would at least tolerate since trying to make her love me wasn't really a possibility.

I finally decided to just stop trying. After 4 decades, I realized that she's the one with the issue and I need to just worry about myself.

So, now I'm 47 and just found out about 2 months ago that what I thought was a heart problem and old age, was, in fact, a uterus full of fibroid tumors. I call them my litter of vampire puppies. The eviction date for them is next month.

I live with a very irritating roommate. I also live in Silicon Valley and it is very expensive to live here. We have lived together for over 4 years. He is only in his mid-twenties and he is very immature and I feel like I'm re rearing someone else remedial child. (Which is sorta what I am doing).

Well, I am not getting the support that I need to prepare for surgery. He keeps making really stupid mistakes that take my time and energy away from saving money so that I can take off from work after surgery. He won't keep the house clean or cook or basically anything that an adult would do not only to take care of themselves much less to support someone who they claim they are about.

I'm running out of time. I can't get another roommate right now, but I don't know how to manage this difficulty either. Sorry if this is too much for some to deal with.

My main problem is, I actually helped this person finish college since his family would not emotionally support him and then I financially supported him for a few months after he graduated because his family thought that all they needed to do was help him financially until he graduated. So after graduation, the money stopped, because jobs come magically.

He even promised to help me finish my web development training to pay me back for all the help I gave him freely. This has yet to happen because he doesn't seem to be able to deal with responsibility. He will start forgetting to do chores or pay a bill or something that makes me have to save the day, which means I have to take my attention away from myself and deal with some fire he has caused.

In a nutshell, he still has the safety net of his family if he needs to move, but I do not. Now more then ever because I have to get these tumors removed, I'm loosing too much blood to survive this. My Hemoglobin was at a 6.8 its suppose to be at least 13.

So that's whats going on with me.