Well, I'm trying to remain stable and still recovering from my psychotic episode. It is not easy. I am trying to avoid any type of stress that could make me manic or psychotic. However, there is a need I have to reach out to others still. I am basically all alone but with my family. My family unfortunately does not listen to my problems. So, I feel alone when I have them. I am doing ok now. I know I should have not interacted with men who just want to use me for kicks. I am old enough and experienced enough to know when others want to take advantage of me. It is a sad world out there besides me. For some reason women whom I have contacted have not responded yet. It is ok. I just wanted to practice my new language. I will be ok. I am glad the medication is working to some extent. Otherwise, I would have may be met men whom I did not want to meet. I don't want to waste my time and their time if there is no interest between us. I am a loner and am to some extent happy as a loner. It's just that at times I want to talk to others besides my family and reach out online. I am happy that this site is available. If not, I have no opportunity to vent.