They say I'm a lazy slob... I'm undeserving of everything good. I should die. I don't deserve anything good. I deserve all the bad. I deserve everything bad. I"m an ungrateful *****. My stepdad is right to slam the cabinets and scream dammit and run upstairs because I can't wait to wash off my strawberries in the sink he was putting away dishes when I did it. He works all day and I'm always home on my ***. I'm a *****. I'm a stupid *****. They wont stop. I just want to be happy. I just want them to go away. Please go away. PLease. I can't take it. I can't take much more of this. I'm trying to calm down but I can't.