I think there is a concern that you originally came to the forum appearing somewhat worried and asked what we think of all this.

But when you heard opinions, which were pretty much the same, you became upset and accused people of being judgemental even though people just answered your questions and based responses on what you shared, no one judged.

So if you didn’t want to hear answers, I am unsure why you asked.

You are dating a man involved in organized crime and you seem to enjoy some aspects of it like free food and being driven around and perhaps some elements of danger and drama and power excite you or you’d end this afterbthr first date

I recommend to seek professional help and try to get to the bottom of it to see why you are attracted to such men instead of stable men living life free of danger.

No one (at least I know I don’t) wants you to get hurt so i highly recommend you take serious safety precautions.