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xmascarol
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Default Jun 14, 2019 at 03:56 AM
 
I have so much anger inside of me and I dont know why.I do know that sometimes it is due to my anxieties.the problem is I dont know how to control it.I have tried yelling into my pillow or going into the bathroom but living in a apt building they hear everything,. I seem to get angry at every little thing ,big things to of course.It is so frustrating because nobody here understands my illness.I do have bipolar and a mood disorder to.I know this is not me I am not a violent person,I just feel terrible when I yell sometimes I can control it other times it just sneaks right out of me.I feel like I am a bad person,I don t want to be people that do understand my illness tell me it isnt my fault even my shrink has told me that , I can control it sometimes I laugh instead of yelling if it could only be that way all the time.I feel like when I am yelling something deep down inside of me something is trying to get out. Sometimes it makes me cry too
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