Thank you to both of your kind replies.. Ill be sure to watch the videos right after I make this comment! I’m not sure who I’m replying to as I’m still getting the hang of using this site, but lloivar no i did not experience arousal during the abuse. Every time it was pretty much what’d you’d expect, fear and shock that turned to dissociation from my body until it was over., Becoming aroused by pretty much reliving my past trauma in my sex life has only been a relatively recent development within the past year or so.