I'm barely functioning. I'm neglecting the care my bf needs. Just doing very bare essentials. I have no interest. He mostly sleeps for 19 hours a day. Doesn't really wake up till 5 pm. I don't think the way I'm feeling is just a temporary funk that will pass. I guess I'm going to have to find him a bed somewhere in a nursing home - maybe I could call it a temporary placement, giving me time to decide if I really want it to be permanent.

I could use some help with this. I could pressure his family and get one of his kids to fly out. I don't really want to do that even.

He's had some very brief lapses of contact with reality. Maybe they could be called fleeting hallucinations. He calls for me saying that he's fallen on floor - when he hasn't.

I have to take him to the bathroom now.