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My anxiety is lessening at work but it still impacts my performance and ability to learn. When verbal instructions are given to me it is as if they go into one ear and out the other. It makes me appear slow which causes me to second guess everything I do, especially when learning how to operate machinery that uses a digital controller.
Part of the problem is the disconnect I feel with pushing buttons. I feel barely in control which then causes me to be overly cautious. This makes me appear as a slow learner. When someone is watching me it is worse. I end up seconding guess myself. A few times I froze and had to walk away.
When I am operating a manually controlled machine I feel in control and can actually feel what it is doing. Learning their operation is easy for me.
I know, I am not stupid, but knowing that doesn't really help me feel better.
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Dx: Didgee Disorder
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