Hi,
That sounds confusing, one place defines it, then you read something that says it doesnt exist....? ? and automatically you believe that it doesnt exist! sounds like you just abdicated you own sense, experience and judgement to the 'professionals' or someone........?

you could be talking about closet narcissist, which would fit with what you just did, you abdicate your own experience to make someone else the authority without questioning it.

I've got a disorder, and I've done that type of thing so often, and lived to regret it.

I dont know what your thing is that leads you to identify with this pd, but could this be it?

riverx