I am going to stumble saying this, so please take that into account.
You do have the right to do what you want to. However, this is work and missing the ceremony done by the people who pay you will be a big slap in the face to them. I agree with you, I think you will be hurting yourself if you don't go.
I wish I could help. What do you not like about your work, if that's ok to ask. If not, I respect your choice.
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"Love you.
Take care of you.
Be true to you.
You are the only you,
you will ever know the best.
Reach for YOUR stars.
You can reach them better
than anyone else ever can."
Landon Clary Eason
Grateful Sobriety Fangirl Since 11-16-2007
Happy Sober Crafter