I believe in you Sisabel! You are making healthy changes. It takes time and there could be a few natural bumps along the way but I think your efforts will pay off for you in time. Also, I want to commend your courage! I currently lack such courage. Had a trauma not too long ago, friends disappeared, and I put up my walls. I rarely talk to anyone other than my other half and PC folks now. I just mention because I admire your resilience and tenacity. I can't really complain because I gave up on the idea of offline friendship several months ago. I haven't given up forever but I'm being honest that I just don't have the courage or strength to try again now. So, by contrast Sisabel, I think you should really be giving yourself credit for your latest efforts. You can't win if you're not in...as they say