Ouch!

Your female parental unit doesn't sound very supportive of you at all.

Are you old enough to get out on your own?

It took me getting some time and space away from my family of origin so I could begin to sort things out.

As I worked on my process, the self-injury and suicidal desires started to ease up a good bit.

You do belong here otherwise you wouldn't be here.

You're a child of this universe and you have a right to be here!

Furthermore, if you did do the "S" thing, there would be a hole in the universe where you're supposed to be and that will be a very sad thing because you won't ever be able to find out the reason for your being here.

But, sometimes we have to remove ourselves from people, places and things that are harmful to us and don't have our best interests at heart ... And, sadly, sometimes that includes family.