it's different when you carry a firearm for work. a whole different set of issues...much different then any other profession....the stress of holding the power of just making a wrong split second decision that could kill another person can eat at you. couple that with the power of having access to a weapon if you have depression etc...well, unless you have been there you can not imagine. ptsd is very strong. something like 3 nypd officers have suicided in 9 days. that is why I urge those in the profession to seek a therapist, eap, etc. let others in...don't be alone with the issues...this isn't a profession you can muscle thru alone.

it's not something you can just "will away" or not think about....unless you have been down this road you can't understand.

again Mgsd89, you need, message me . I got your back.