I am afraid that I will never fully experience what true intimacy is.

I am 34 years old and have had relationships in my past. Even an 8 year relationship which gave me 2 children but I still don’t feel as though I know what real intimacy is. I have always sabotaged any chance of intimacy and in all honesty, I find it extremely uncomfortable when a relationship becomes close to growing an intimate bond. This bring the case, I still yearn to know someone this deeply and to be known this way by another.

I want to be seen and heard on this deep level but it’s as if I am hopelessly adverse to it 😕