I am so crazy. I am going to take a nap because I can't do much of anything and then plan a trip to the hospital. I dread it due to social anxiety. I am horrified because I have lost my purse, my ID, everything. I am so frantic and at the same time I desperately need to sleep and at the same time I can't sleep. If I don't do something soon, I might never come back from insanity. My family doesn't yet know this. Frantic doesn't begin to describe it. My H wants me to be fine, but I'm not. He cleaned my room today because I can't do anything. I am so lost. I am not myself. This is just excruciatingly devastating to me. I can't just be who I am. Because I have all of these mental illnesses taking hold.

Stupidly, one thing that would help if I could find my purse. It has my drivers license, credit cards that I should be cancelling,, I have to go to DMV which I have zero tolerance for. I really wish I could find this so the pressure/stress would be relieved.

I am so broken.