He has been helping support me and I suppose I feel stuck and scared if I leave him. I have a disability claim currently open and waiting for court. I can’t work so I am afraid to be alone. But yes this person continues to fight with me and make me feel crazy. It drives me into level 10 panic attacks. I know I need to leave him. Just this weekend I took out my phone to take a pic of us and there was a text from my friend on it and I opened it and he blew up and got mad at me for texting. I said I wasn’t texting I just saw the text when I pulled out my phone. My friend texted me on advice on paint colors because she Was getting her Solon painted in like one hour. He admitted he manipulates me and promised not to do it then two days later does it again. I have to get away. It’s making my mental health worse and messing with my grieving process. I need calm and love and caring. I do know that inside. I have low self esteem. I’m used to abuse in relationships.